Happy New Year!

Here it is, almost 2 hours until midnight and I still haven't talked about Christmas. I had an awesome time with the kids. They get so excited over opening presents. I made socks for the grandkids and the boys wore theirs for 2 days! I love it.

Work was kinda slow this week. That was good because I haven't felt well all week. My back is hurting and I've had several people rub arnica gel on it. It helps a lot, but I think it's mostly the massaging on of the gel that helps.

I got a Happy New Year's kiss today! Too bad it's from a married guy I occasionally work with. He's so nice.....oh well. I told him to find someone for me!

I'm working on a new sock, of course. But for some reason I keep making errors so I'm faithfully counting each row as I finish. So far that is working. Susan and I are having our own Knit-A-Long.....the Echo Flower Shawl. She gave me more than enough lace weight yarn. She'll have it done long before I do. It's a shame I have to work.

I wish I had the words to say the things I want. I was raised in a household where we didn't elaborate or use fancy words at all. I talk and write tersely and to the point. I have a hard time expressing exactly what I'm feeling. Maybe I.....Maybe I should.....I just don't know. I think you have it as a writer or speaker or you don't. I don't. Now talk to me scientifically and I'm there!

Max was a bad boy tonight. Several years ago Susan got me a beautiful wooden sign that says "Pray". Max reached up and knocked it off the wall. It broke. I was so mad at him. He's outside and may stay there awhile. I think I can glue it back together. He's just been mean lately when I'm around. Is he getting mad at me for leaving him alone when I go to see the kids? He still cuddles with me a night, but I don't understand why he wants to knock everything off.....paper on the table, pictures on the wall, my water bottle on the floor, etc and etc. He's worse now than when he was a kitten. Do cats have second childhoods? Wish I knew.....

Tomorrow starts a new year. I don't think it's going to be any better than 2009. I don't get a raise or COLA and my prescriptions have sky-rocketed. My house is falling apart. I'm hurting...that's not going away. And did I mention that besides being a procrastinator I'm also a pessimist. The way I see it is like this....a pessimist will never be disappointed and if something good happens, it's wonderful. An optimist will often be disappointed and will be sad when things don't go their way. So.....if anything good happens to me this coming year, I'll be very excited. And if it doesn't....oh, well...I didn't expect anything, anyway.

I am praying that the world will be a better place and that no one has to go hungry, be without a home and suffer with pain.